Crossdressers-Haven.com

Hello all:

My names Suesin, I'm a 43 yo married CD from upstate NY. I've been lurking for awhile here and have been impressed with the quality of posts and the qualities of the posters.

Though I have been dressing since I was in my teens it has been fairly limited in scope and I have spent a lot of energy over the years trying to escape this part of myself. Which is actually sad as I never really had any kind of an intellectual problem with it in the first place. But I have reached a point where I need to integrate this part of me and find some peace and comfort.

My wife is supportive and even encouraging. She has known about my crosdressing since before we where married ( 5th aniversery last week) and was accepting from the start though thinking it more a kink than anything else. I never tried to explain to her what I felt though, and as a result have continued to battle myself actually avoided dressing as much as if she was against it at times.

But I have reached a point of needing to let myself out more and become a whole person. I have now talked with my wife about who I am and why I crossdress and though she has some questions she didn't have before, she is that much more supportive knowing that this is a much bigger part of me.

So I have a lot to learn emotionally and practically as I am not very experienced, and I was hopeing to do some of that here. I have also joined a mailing list for a support group that meets not awfully far away (about an hours drive).

So hello to all, and I look forward to getting to know you.

- Suesin

Hi Suesin!

Welcome to group! Congrats on such a wonderful relationship you share with your wife! It's so huge that you can sit and talk with her about things that you feel.

Hugs,
Stef

Hello Suesin,
to the forum.I
sandi

Thanks for the welcome Stef, Sandi. I am really excited to be here. It is amazing to me how much better I feel just as a result of an honest conversation with my wife and few email exchanges with someone from the local support group I mentioned (and of course getting myself to post here).

For so many years, dressing has been something I have done in a spirit of despiration and fear not joy and freedom. I have managed to accept and deal with alcohol problems and chronic depression only to still feel broken.

Over the years I have had a lot of feelings come over me while crossdressing, some good some bad none really comfortable. Last night I was reading in bed alone. I had on just a pair of thigh highs and a new pair of panties under a t-shirt and lounge pants, not that uusual as over the past month or so I have had on something fem most of the time and at this point all I have is underthings. Anyways I was just in bed reading. I was noticing how well the pamties fit me when I was just overwhelmed to the point of tears with what I can best describe as a feeling of rightness and peace. It was a new and wonderful feeling and tells me that inside I know whats right.

Thanks - Suesin

Welcome Suesin. I reckon your avatar suits you right now, a flower in bloom

Note that your wife can join in the discussions on this forum too. My wife has joined but not posted yet. I told here if she needs to ask another SO/wife anythingto feel free to do so.

Thanks Donna:

I was planning on showing this place to my wife. As soon as I finish fixing her computer which has been sitting waiting for my attention for weeks (I had hoped to get her a new one for christmas). She doesn't like using mine because I don't run Windows on it and she is always afraid she'll do something wrong and break it, she can't of course but she still hates using it.

- Suesin

Thanks for the welcome Sharon

- Suesin

welcome, I love this site, it is so warm and welcoming. Also can be quite informative. It is so sweet to see someone with a supportive SO, and another CD that despises windows....Linux for me forever.


Jamie[/quote]

Congratulations on joining us. And, I can relate very well to that feeling you had of 'rightness'. The other me and Lynne are getting along very well these days!
I show my wife some of the posts to introduce her to the forum. She's very supportive, and has been impressed with the quality of the girls and SO's here. It's a great place, keep posting and reading!!
Lynne

Thanks Jamie, thanks Lynne. I've been lurking here for a little while and I have found no place else online that seems as balanced and friendly as this one.

- Suesin