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During the middle years of the nineteen fifties at about the age of twelve, I became increasing interested in my aunts freshly washed panties, that she would hang on the clothes line that was partly inside our home. Until one day when I was home alone I put them on. Well I tell you I had never experienced any thing that felt as good as they did, and because this forum is intended for all audiences, I will only say that I had a “first ever” life experience right then and there. I quirkily took them off and returned them to there original place, and I was scared silly, I thought something was very wrong with me.

And so my secret began, about two weeks later I tried it again with the same results. Slowly I continued to wear my aunts and my mothers clothing more and more until at the age of fifteen when I got caught.

I do not remember how I got caught or who caught me, but I do remember that the preacher was called and came over (my folks belonged to a religious cult) That is the day I left home. Walked out in front of them all with out saying a word and hitch hitched to my Uncles farm forty miles away.

Well I continued to cross-dress for the next 15 years for the same reason, stopping and starting I don't know how many different times always purging each time.

At about the age of forty four I quit and purged again for the last time, for eight years. Six or seven years ago I started cross-dressing again, with completely different results with which I am very pleased.

About three months ago I obtained access to the net and here I am.

Hi Darlene,

Wow. That's a powerful beginnings story. I don't think I've ever heard of anyone who left home because of CD'ing. It sounds like you weren't in a healthy environment so I believe it was the right thing to do.

Purging stinks, no way around that. I wish I had never purged.

How old were you when you left btw?

I'm glad you're happy now and that you found the net!!!

Thanks for sharing your story with us!!!

Beauty

Darlene,
I think it took a lot of character to walk out but as was stated it sounds like a somewhat unhealthy environment. HOpe you have time to read some of the information in the posts here - GOOD STUFF!!!! I know that researching why I feel this way and now understanding it has made my life even easier. I keep saying it and evidence supports it (ie, my sisters and their intelligence here!) We are just wired BETTER than our unfortunate brethren and have been since birth. For some of us it just takes longer for these genes to express themselves over our repression.
Enjoy your "Magical Mystery Tour."
Love,
Deborah

Thank you Girls.

Yes I am from an un-healthy family, that is still un-healthy today.

Beauty I was a few months past my fifteenth birthday when I left.

Deborah I feel a bond with some of you here, and I believe that is because we are indeed wired better. I like to think of it as though we are some where between male and female, sort of like having the opportunity of having the best of both worlds.

Julie there is a reason some folks here have referred to you as a gem, I do have a good life now especially since I resumed cross-dressing. I have good friends and a lot to be thankful for.

Again thanks to you all, you guys are great.