as i've come more and more out and open with my crossdressing there has been an awareness that i am not just one personality but several. i feel that i have several different "types" of people who come and go. i'm not explaining this really well because part of me is still trying to figure it out.
there is britney, (the feminized version of my birth name) who is very flirtatious, girlie, and a tease.
there is amy, who i feel is more straight laced with a secret wild side, she is your typical lesbian activist chick who loves to read and write and get creative.
there is also samantha who is childish and tomboyish.
i feel like these names all apply to me at different stages....is it weird or a sign that i'm going crazy to have given myself these different feminine sides of me their own identities?
has anyone else done this?
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Miss Britney
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Virginia
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Britney,
Honey, I don't wish to rain on your parade, but you will not find the proverbial couch here. If you sincerely think you are four different people, one male and three female, you may need to seek professional help. On the other hand, girls are such unique creatures, are they not?? It would not be unusual to find a true GG that is so diversified that she can go from being a true Princess to a lesbian to a tomboy all in the same unique package. Some one once said that a lot of CD'ers are nothing more than males lesbians - have to think about that?! Anyway, don't try and over analyze yourself - you have a beautiful gift, that is the ability to "transistion" to a female personna (or three). This will not work itself out over night! Relax, enjoy your gift, share the love, empathy, caring, fun that you evidently have and if in time you still feel you have a conflict as to which female personna you have and wish to pursue, then maybe professional help may be an alternative, but for right now just enjoy it - don't push it (them) on anyone, but have fun with it. I think you will be OK!
Love,
Virginia
Honey, I don't wish to rain on your parade, but you will not find the proverbial couch here. If you sincerely think you are four different people, one male and three female, you may need to seek professional help. On the other hand, girls are such unique creatures, are they not?? It would not be unusual to find a true GG that is so diversified that she can go from being a true Princess to a lesbian to a tomboy all in the same unique package. Some one once said that a lot of CD'ers are nothing more than males lesbians - have to think about that?! Anyway, don't try and over analyze yourself - you have a beautiful gift, that is the ability to "transistion" to a female personna (or three). This will not work itself out over night! Relax, enjoy your gift, share the love, empathy, caring, fun that you evidently have and if in time you still feel you have a conflict as to which female personna you have and wish to pursue, then maybe professional help may be an alternative, but for right now just enjoy it - don't push it (them) on anyone, but have fun with it. I think you will be OK!
Love,
Virginia
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Kersten Lee
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Miss Britney,
I have to reply to you and Virginia. I love all your names. I have only felt like two people, Rich and Kersten. I have been in therapy for over two years now and it has been great for me. My greatest issues had nothing to do with cross-dressing.
I have always tried to sell therapy because it has been a life saver to me. If you should go that route, you are never as nuts as you think. Change if a therapist doesn't work for you. You always must trust yourself to know what is best. The therapist should help you to do what is in your best interest and sadly that is not always what happens.
Having said all that, even with Virginia and I not always seeing eye to eye on therapy, read her post again. It is better than mine and right all the way. Virginia, you are so wonderful with such great advice, insight and help!
Love yourself, who ever you feel you are this moment,
Love,
Kersten
I have to reply to you and Virginia. I love all your names. I have only felt like two people, Rich and Kersten. I have been in therapy for over two years now and it has been great for me. My greatest issues had nothing to do with cross-dressing.
I have always tried to sell therapy because it has been a life saver to me. If you should go that route, you are never as nuts as you think. Change if a therapist doesn't work for you. You always must trust yourself to know what is best. The therapist should help you to do what is in your best interest and sadly that is not always what happens.
Having said all that, even with Virginia and I not always seeing eye to eye on therapy, read her post again. It is better than mine and right all the way. Virginia, you are so wonderful with such great advice, insight and help!
Love yourself, who ever you feel you are this moment,
Love,
Kersten
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Anita
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Hi Miss Britney--
Before I started actively CDing, there were several different voices to the women's personalities that I sensed inside me. One was more like the Anita I am today, and the other was just bitchy and aggressive.
But I think your multiple sides are fairly normal, myself. My femme side tends to cover a wide range of behavior, but it feels like it's all coming from one source. But I could easily see how it could be split off into different aspects of personality. And I would think that time would tend to merge these differences, just like my male and female personas have merged over time.
Before I started actively CDing, there were several different voices to the women's personalities that I sensed inside me. One was more like the Anita I am today, and the other was just bitchy and aggressive.
But I think your multiple sides are fairly normal, myself. My femme side tends to cover a wide range of behavior, but it feels like it's all coming from one source. But I could easily see how it could be split off into different aspects of personality. And I would think that time would tend to merge these differences, just like my male and female personas have merged over time.
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Kerri
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Hi Britney,
I was always a Jim until I joined a TG Support Group. The I cycled through a series of names mainly to please my peers.
I call myself Kerri in this forum, this is linked to a pseudo identity I have built up in Yahoo where they think I am a US citizen, which I am not. I did this to try and buy goods in the states, from companies with Brit outlets. e.g. A PC in US is $600, the same PC in UK is £600. It didnt work.
I use different names to achieve anonimity in different areas of the internet. In the flesh, whether wearing a ballgown or a boilersuit my name and identity is Jim.
My personality doesnt change with my attire either. I am often aggressive, moody and call a spade a spade. I too am receiving therapy for depression. But psychiatrist's in the UK cannot be swopped as they appear to be in your country.
I agree with Virginia, the old sea dog that she is. Dont try to analyse yourself, it makes you look inwards and that can lead to a lot of problems.
Accept what you have and live your life accordingly.
Be good,
Kerri, Jim, Sarahhh, Jenny, June, Margaret, Claire, Angus and Willy.
I was always a Jim until I joined a TG Support Group. The I cycled through a series of names mainly to please my peers.
I call myself Kerri in this forum, this is linked to a pseudo identity I have built up in Yahoo where they think I am a US citizen, which I am not. I did this to try and buy goods in the states, from companies with Brit outlets. e.g. A PC in US is $600, the same PC in UK is £600. It didnt work.
I use different names to achieve anonimity in different areas of the internet. In the flesh, whether wearing a ballgown or a boilersuit my name and identity is Jim.
My personality doesnt change with my attire either. I am often aggressive, moody and call a spade a spade. I too am receiving therapy for depression. But psychiatrist's in the UK cannot be swopped as they appear to be in your country.
I agree with Virginia, the old sea dog that she is. Dont try to analyse yourself, it makes you look inwards and that can lead to a lot of problems.
Accept what you have and live your life accordingly.
Be good,
Kerri, Jim, Sarahhh, Jenny, June, Margaret, Claire, Angus and Willy.