How I began

Brianne · Post by **Brianne** » Wed Jul 28, 2004 10:42 pm

I guess I was 4 or 5, being babysat by a lady while my mom worked. The lady who babysat me however had a very spoiled duaghter, so needless to say we did what she wanted to do all day, a lot of which was playing dress up. walking around the house in her moms heels etc. For some reason Ive never stopped this, as Ide try to wear my moms heels whenever Ide get the chance. She had quite a collection so she kept some in my bedroom and at night ide put on socks and stand in them in the closet. As I grew up my shoe fetish went on where ide steal shoes from girls at school to wear at home when I was alone and then later ide steal from the teachers. As I knew I was different I beat myself up pretty bad emotionally and the rest of my school mates beat me up pretty good too. There was no internet in the 70s so here I was addicted to dressing up for the arrousal and feeling the shame promicing myself this was the last time everytime... So where am I today? well stuck in a rut, trying to get out, living in a small redneck town allthough with a supporting and loving wife, unhappy with my looks unable to show my face as of yet. Now shamed by some TG people for still allowing myself to have sexual feeling while dressed, its not just about the sex anymore but I feel why should I denie myself something that has brought me so much pleasure and still does at times. Shoes? Oh yeah about the shoes. Ive got lots and still love collecting them.

Marda · Post by **Marda** » Thu Jul 29, 2004 12:41 am

Hi Brianne

*LUCKY ME* Again

I'm the KittyKat who getz to give you the 1st Hug here in the *Beginningz* Room

( Like I said Ariana ...

)

Brianne ... sit yourself down Dear ... be comfortable ... if you need to kry a bit, we Love Krying bekause it helps wash away the madness that we've all had to swallow over the years

Emotionz are *Legal* here

Shame is ... well ... just *Not* *Welcome* ... Mr.Shame will just have to go somewhere else

... and if Mr.Guilt snuck in beside you ... we'll put the run on *him* PDQ

We've all had *guilt* tripz ... and we kan pretty much relate to *everything* you have spoken here

Personally ... I'd like to go into your summary here a teeny bit more ... to explore your kommentz *probably* for my own selfish benefit ... because you said some stuff which *hitz* home 4 me

4 now ... I have to get a few thingz done here so I'm gonna signoff for a spell ... but stay tuned to this channel ...

btw: Darlene is a Great Gal in Vancouver ? and I'm not too far from you here on the Mainland also

So *Maybe* we *Will* have a chance to have a KittyKatKuddle some day

Keep Smiling Brianne ... and again ... WelKome *Home* to the Forum (PowdeRoom)

Love / Marda

SophieLawson · Post by **SophieLawson** » Thu Jul 29, 2004 2:02 am

Shose Shoes Shoes

Brianne there is something about wearing heels that I just love as well, I love the sound they make as they click click click

Sophie xx

Marda · Post by **Marda** » Thu Jul 29, 2004 3:28 am

Hi Brianne

Back again for a few minutes

Now ... about those so-called TG people who are "shaming" you for having sexual feelings when you dress ???

You don't need their garbage ... they're expressing a very negative and destructive position from the confines of their own personal "Psychic Prisons" ... take your "heels" off, pull up your skirt and *Run* from these *Doomsday Damsels*

Dressing is an outward and visible expression / manifestation of your true, natural, beautiful and obviously very *Strong* and *Resilient* *Feminine_Self* component !!!

Bravo Girl !!!

The fact that you have this sexual drive confirms to me that you are very *Healthy* ... dressing is the "trigger" that enables your inner woman to overcome your social conditioning and to surface ... and energize you ... bring *You* to *Life*

Personally, I'd be worried if dressing did *Not* arouse your sexual drive ... *That* would tell me you were *Not* a true TG

Truely Androgynous people are *strong* and specially *gifted* people whose *Sexuality* and *Blood* runs *Fast* and *Hot* ...

It's *Society's* problem that we are *Feared* and *Not* *Understood* for our *Truely* *Cosmic* *Force* and *Potential*

(Recommended reading = Think & Grow Rich / Napolean Hill)

When those Devilish Damsels try to give you the Gears of Their Own Despair, just say *Like Long John Baldry says* ...

"Don't Lay No Boogee Woogee On The King Of Rock & Roll"

Love / Marda

Beauty · Post by **Beauty** » Thu Jul 29, 2004 6:54 am

Hi Brianne,

That was a very open and loving story about dressing. Thanks for sharing your beginnings story with us.

I'm proud that you've told your wife!!!!

That is VERY important!!!

Do you dress all the way these days? Learning to do makeup takes much time. Be patient. I think you're on your way.

This surely was a HUGE first step.

Thank you twice for letting us know more about you!!!

Beauty

Rebecca · Post by **Rebecca** » Thu Jul 29, 2004 5:17 pm

Hi Brianne,

If you read away at the zillions of posts here, you will find all sorts of folks with all sorts of ways of living. If we are not hurting anyone then I can see NO harm at all in your way of expressing yourself.

On this forum, we all try to accept each other for whoever we are. Most of the time, (though not always) we understand each other, and we are learning constantly.

I think you will find this a very usefull place, feel free to chat away, there will be plenty of girls who can relate to what you have to say, you will not be alone.

Your wife sounds as though she is a key factor in your life. Have you shown her this site ?

Remember John Lennon
'Whatever gets you through the night.. is allright, allright'

Love
Rebecca xxx

Virginia · Post by **Virginia** » Thu Jul 29, 2004 9:39 pm

Marda,
A nice bowl of warm cream for my second favorite Kitty Kat! Well put, honey!
Love ya,
Deborah

PaulaK · Post by **PaulaK** » Fri Jul 30, 2004 7:06 am

Hi sis,

I am sorry to hear about your current situation, but take heart. A lot of us sisters are there too.

Incidently, I also had some adventures with a beautiful woman teacher's shoes in my early years. I am not sure we can discuss the specifics here, but perhaps we can in private?

I am not sure how to do that, as I also just joined the Forum too. But I would like to hear from you.

I just love the sound of heels clicking on a hardwood floor "the sound of civilization" I heard it called once. And knowing that YOU are making that sound! Even GG's love it!

Paula K

SophieLawson · Post by **SophieLawson** » Fri Jul 30, 2004 10:43 am

PaulaK wrote:I just love the sound of heels clicking on a hardwood floor "the sound of civilization" I heard it called once. And knowing that YOU are making that sound! Even GG's love it!

Yes Paula, has to be the sexiest sound in the whole wide world!

Sophie xx

Virginia · Post by **Virginia** » Fri Jul 30, 2004 9:13 pm

Sophie, Yes the click of heels is sooooo sexy, but also, I love the sound of a lipstick case after I use is then the click as it closes and I drop it in my purse!
Love, Deborah

PaulaK · Post by **PaulaK** » Sat Jul 31, 2004 2:09 am

Yes the click of heels is sooooo sexy, but also, I love the sound of a lipstick case after I use is then the click as it closes and I drop it in my purse! ]

I don't disagree sis. But you hear that click once. Each step you take in heels makes another one. The sound of a woman's heels can make every man in a room turn around.

Plus they make your legs look GREAT

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